#119: Can the US healthcare system crush my creativity? Also: Happiness, Future of Education, Student Loans & Assorted Links
š· Life, work & what matters
December 5th, 2020: Greetings from Puerto Escondido!
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š¤ Iāve written a pretty personal take on healthcare below detailing some frustrating experiences Iāve had this year. Iād love to hear peopleās reactions.
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#1 Screw you, āhealthcareā
When I was 27 I faced a health challenge with tick-borne illnesses that took me almost two years to recover fully. A series of misdiagnoses and side effects from medications left me with both long-term health issues and resentment towards the medical system.
Our āhealthcareā system is not designed to keep people healthy, it is designed to treat sickness. Within sick people, it really is only able to treat the type of sick people that have a clear diagnosis. Have a skin issue? Go to a dermatologist.
Have gut issues, brain fog, fatigue and tingling in your arm? Go to a GI doctor, neurologist, get an MRI, and then hope and pray. Pray that theyāll have anything useful to say and pray that you wonāt lose all your money in unexpected medical bills.
This is the situation I found myself in this summer.
This past March while in Spain I had to have a tooth extracted. The initial healing was a bit painful but everything seemed okay after a couple of weeks. At the beginning of May, all hell broke loose. Fatigue, nausea, tingling throughout my extremities and numbness in my legs. I couldnāt make it through the day without two or three hour-long naps. It appeared I had an abscess on my gums, but no dentist or doctor was able to tell me definitively. I took several antibiotics, had a CAT scan and eventually ended up finding an oral surgeon who operated on my gum and removed a piece leftover from the initial extraction. Apparently this happens sometimes.
My experiences dealing with complex health challenges when I was 27 popped the bubbles of youth and immortality. It also made me well aware that most of us are dealing with something. We just are all taught to pretend otherwise most of the time.
Given these uncertain health issues, many people urged me to come back to the US for the summer. We have a great healthcare system after all, right?
In some ways the American healthcare system is fantastic. We probably have some of the best cancer care in the world. But we also have soul-crushing bureaucracy that would make East Germany look efficient.
My first few weeks in the US I didnāt have insurance. Unlike Spain where I could walk into a doctorās office and ask them the price (about $60), no such thing is possible in the US.
Price? We donāt know until we process your insurance.
I ended up getting a short-term indemnity coverage for my first week weeks that turns out to be some sort of bad joke. I paid $400 and what I ended up with was a discount scheme rather than insurance.
The neurologist I saw? That cost $473 and after a ādiscountā is was only $325
The neurologist didnāt know what was wrong with me and said as much. She suggested I get a blood draw of my B6 levels. In Spain the blood draw was free with the doctorās visit. In the US, an extra $100+ after ādiscountā!
She also suggested I get an MRI just in case. I told her I was worried about the bill for the appointment and the scans and she acknowledge me, āyeah its a crazy system, I wish it wasnāt so bad.ā
Even the doctors are helpless. Damn.
Iāll save you the details but after 60 days of seeing doctors, alternative practitioners and racking up thousands of dollars of non-help, I ended up finding one thing that seemed to help my fatigue and stop the tingling in my face, arms and legs: B12 injections. 12 shots for $5 at CVS.
Iām doing okay now and I feel quite lucky. The B12 shots seem to be working and for the past three months Iāve more or less been pretty healthy most days.
One might think Iām a bit crazy to be pursuing this self-employment path and living abroad with a less-than-stellar health history.
But getting sick at 27 is what gave me the courage to follow this path. At that time, I lost what I thought was important to me, my identity as a successful worker. For a while I swapped that identity with the identity of someone who is āsick.ā
That wasnāt helpful either and slowly I realized that I would need to figure out who I was. Writing, creations and all sorts of experiments followed. More than five years later and Iām still not sure who I am but Iām also not sure that question is all that important anyway.
Almost losing my health in my twenties gave me the courage to chart a different path. Iāve talked to many people who experienced the same.
Yet I canāt advise most to take this path, especially Americans, who are the only people in the world who have access to healthcare tied to employment.
When I think about moving back to the US the biggest worry I have is healthcare. What states have decent plans for self-employed people? Will I need to get a full-time job? What are the alternatives? Will my health be okay?
The US healthcare system is a tax on creativity, innovation and freedom for many people. I keep getting bills from this summer that dare me to quit this path.
But fuck you, US healthcare system, Iām going to keep going.
šØĀ How does healthcare impact how you think about your life? Iād love to share some reflections with others next week. Hit reply!
#2 Conversation With Packy McCormick
š§ You can listen here
I had a podcast interview with Packy of the Not Boring newsletter.
His competitive advantage:
āMy only differentiation...is that Iām going to be having more fun than most peopleā
Heās understood the wisdom of creating work you actually want to do:
āWhat you write about defines who youāre going to spend a lot of time interacting with...It better be something youāre interested in or those conversations are going to be painful.
How heās a self-employment true believer:
āI canāt imagine having to go back to a job where I have to work for somebody and two go to an office every day.Ā Once youāve had a taste for the other side it seems like a crazy constriction of optionality.āĀ Ā Ā
Another convert to the āpathless path:
āRight now I feel really good not having goals...thereās been enough serendipitous things happening that im comfortable not setting those goals.
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#3 Student Loans
The lens I look at things is often through a lens of freedom. Not freedom-to, but freedom-from. Many people look at student loans through a lens of fairness. āThey shouldnāt get their loans forgiven because I paid mine off.ā Sure.
But do we really want to live with increasing number of fellow citizens who are held back by student loan debt? Matt Taibbi highlights the case of Chris, 59 and a law grad, who is still paying off his loans.
Through 2020, when student loan obligations were halted due to the coronavirus, he paid $190,000 on an original debt of $79,000. His current balance? The aforementioned $236,000.
I think we should think about enabling people to live a life with the freedom-from a lifetime of massive student loan debt. Should we forgive the student loans of a child of a rich family who spent $75k a year at Boston University? Maybe not.
But should we allow people to discharge their debt in bankruptcy? Especially 59 year olds who have already paid $190,000? I vote yes.
#4 A Couple Of YouTube videos I created
Iāve been experimenting with YouTube as part of Ali Abdaalās course which has been amazing. Itās been fun to create on a new medium. I definitely donāt enjoy it as much as writing but I like learning these things such that I can help others.
Happiness, meaning & hacking a living in the modern world
Book Review: Education In A Time Between Worlds
A book of essays from Zac Stein who is dreaming big about the future of the education system. His general hypothesis:
āI have been arguing that all current global crises might best be understood as crises of educationā
Would love to hear any feedback or requests if you want me to make any other videos!
#5 Other Links
Byrne Hobart had a great piece on the history of Taiwanese manufacturing. Venkatesh Rao had a great free post on The Art of Gig titled āGoing indie is going amateurā as well as an interesting thread on how nation states will compete on healthcare (pairs well with above).
I write to find out and to connect with others who are wired the same. Connect with me on Twitter or just hit reply and tell me what you think.